you, beach and an empty jar

October 20**
4:45 AM
Kuta beach



The small of sand tastes sweet in my lips
A liquor of Jack D inside a bottle of Aqua
A hidden smile looks good on you
then you nod.. asking me to sit with you



UH: Can I ask you something?
J: Of course.... Tonight you can ask me anything
UH: Why are you so cheerful? I'm here listening to your life stories and I don't get it. How come you're so happy?
J: (I smile)
UH: Wait a minute... You're not happy aren't you?
J: Everybody wears their own mask, honey.
UH: Can I tell you something?
J: You're going to tell me anyway right?

UH: (his smiles can melt my heart)

Every person walk around this planet like an empty jar.
And they are always trying to find a way to fill this jar
So most of them will try to find big rocks to fill it
These big rocks can be so many different things for each person
It can be a very succesful career, happy marriage, and many others
But they don't realize they still have this empty spaces between the big rocks
That's why most of them will always feel empty
Do you want to know the real secret to be happy?

You fill the jar with sands
Little by little, ever small, insignificant happiness you fill that in your jar
and finally you jar is filled and full..
That's when you feel like you don't need to find anything else and stop looking...

J: Then let me ask you this. Are you happy?
UH: Are you kidding me? Sitting on a beach waitingfor a sunrise with a Jack D in my hands and a great company besides me. What else I'm looking for? Yes. I am happy.


the ocean is smiling at us
the moon began to dissapear
the wind is playing with my hair
he brush my hair from my forehead

UH: Come on. Let's drive you home. You have to go to work in 2 hours

Story As Old As Time

Boy meets girl...

GI: Dude, I met a girl yesterday. Di acaranya P**** C****. Ga terduga banget.

YM: Oh her? She's my bestfriend...

Boy likes girl...

GI: I really like her... G ampe nervous mau ketemuan aja

YM: Yeah, I'm in love with her for the last 2 years. I need to do something about it

Girl likes boy?

GI: Aduh, ga ngerti juga deh gw. Soalnya dia aneh gitu. Besides I think she's close with someone else but she keep it as a secret

YM: She keeps ignoring me and taking me for granted... but if I don't call her she will get upset.

Boy have enough of it...

GI: Udah lah. She's too complicated. To think of it.. we have different POV of life

YM: G udh kasih deadline. And that's it.

Girl doesn't want to loose her fans...

GI: Dia nelpon lagi.. Curhat ini itu...

YM: She called me, and apologize, and asked me for a second chance

the history repeat?

GI: Aduh, why does everytime she calls I kept thinking about her?

YM: Ya udah lah. She's worth all the trouble.. so I'm gonna try it again

we have a word for guys like you:

S U C K E R

and they are convinced that men rules the world

baby, you run the world because we let you!!!

Dante wrote...

the way to Heaven is through Hell
~Divine Comedy~

atau bahasa kerennya bersakit-sakit dahulu berenang-renang kemudian kali yeee...

they might be right

I let you know once I'm there

but for right now...

Come What May

In time of need...

... all I need is you




GI: Babe, I understand how hard this is.. but you're the toughest girl besides j*** that I know.. I know you can get through this easily

OR: Halah. Udahlah nyet. Soal kayak gini ga bakal ngelukain loe.. Loe mah pasti gampang dapet k****** b***

RS: Hm... honestly, if this happen to someone else I would've worried.. but because it's you and the things that you accomplish? Seriously? You're still worried?

NA: Jen, orang selevel loe ga perlu kuatir lagi. Sumpah. G yakin kok dalam sebulan juga loe dapet t******

YM: Sorry banget nyet. Ya udah lah. Emang loe lagi sial bgt tahun ini.. but you're a very strong person.. Ini cuma kerikil doank buat loe

One sentence that ends it all...
GI, OR, RS, NA, YM: "Kan gw masih di sini"


Sumpah.. mengharu biru gw..
I guess, when you're in your time of need you finally can see how other people actually perceive you
and one more thing for sure
I cannot ask for better groups of bestfriends..
Literally, I can NOT live without you

P & P's

P: A 30 something years old guy. Very cute, very charming and galant...An owner of a VERY succes EO but...

P: A VERY CUTE male model that is a mix between Chinese and Rusia. Very adorable, has a personality that shines like a sun but..

My P&P's... you're like my chocolate when I have Diabetes

I would like to have it but it's really bad for my health..

does it matter anymore?

Good morning heartache
You old gloomy sight
Good morning heartache
Thought we said goodbye last night
I turned and tossed until it seems you have gone
But here you are with the dawn
Wish I forget you, but you’re here to stay
It seems I met you
When my love went away
Now everyday I stop I’m saying to you
Good morning heartache what’s new


Stop haunting me now
Can’t shake you no how
Just leave me alone
I’ve got those Monday blues
Straight to Sunday blues
Good morning heartache
Here we go again
Good morning heartache
You’re the one
Who knows me well
Might as well get use to you hanging around
Good morning heartache
Sit down
~ Billie Holiday ~

bayangan sayapku melambung di angkasa
napafasku tersengal di kandas impian
aku ingat perasaan itu
aku tidak merindukanmu
hantu yang memekik di keheningan jiwa
aku sudah tiada

I G N O R A N C E

is it a bliss or a curse?

Haunted

OR: Nyet, loe tau soal Maria Eva itu ga?

J: Emang napa?

OR: G jadi parno nih.. kan HP g pernah ilang

J: Emang loe pernah naro gambar apa?

OR: Y a itu, gambar g ama si bangsat!!

J: Huahuahua.... lagi macem2?

OR: Ya lumayan..

J: Keliatan mukanya?

OR: banget!

J: Goblok!

OR: Loe malah jangan bikin g parno donk!! Sialan

J: Kapan ilangnya?

OR: Setahun yg lalu!! Tapi tetep! Kan si Maria Eva itu juga Hp nya ilang 2 tahun yg lalu, tapi tetep aja baru keluarnya sekarang

J: Ya ela.. Ya udah lah. Loe berharap aja either loe atau si bangsat ga ada yg jadi org terkenal.

OR: Cuma gitu doank? Ga ada kata2 bijak dr loe atau pencegahan?

J: paling ya itu... GOBLOK!

OR: MONYET!!

J: huahuhuah

Sometimes no matter how hard you try to hide your past

in one form or the other, it will always going to come back and haunt you

for me, I better admit it, accept it, make amends and fix it NOW

so CARPE DIEM!!

"no day but today"

"forget regret or life is yours to miss"

RENT

Same Shit, Different Dog

It's still shit though


This ship is sinking, and I'm getting off of it

L O V E

A girl asks a boy "Why there should be love?"


The boy reply "So there would be great stories to be told when we get old”

If it is that true love never dies, then why all lovers have to struggle to stay alive?

Fishing

When there is a goldfish
that lives in the ocean and took a bait

Who should we blame?

the ocean for keeping the goldfish when he knows the goldfish doesn't belong there
the goldfish because she's living in the ocean, and she is a freshwater fish
the goldfish because she took the bait
the bait because he tries to seduce the goldfish that doesn't belong in the ocean
or the fisherman that seduce the goldfish with the bait?

"too often going after what feels good means letting go of what's right"

John Dorian

Tippy Toe Tin

Tippy Toe Tin likes to tip on her toe
With her Jimmy Choo shoes and her vintage Prada bag
She tip on her toes
Tip Toe Tip Toe
Trippty Tee Trippty toe
Her heel clicks in each steps

Tippy Toe Tin talks to the Pig, her bestfriend
Tippy Toe Tin tip-toed around the surface of the pond
where the water is green and the end is blue



Tippy Toe Tin likes to whispers to the Sultan that sits on a bug
they play guessing games, the Tippy Toe Tin and the Sultan


Tippy Toe Tin likes the bug
she whisper to the Winnie the Pooh
secret secret


Tippy Toe Tin fiddle with the moon
while longing for the clouds


Tippy Toe Tin, the pig, the Sultan, the bug, and the Winnie the Pooh


One afternoon, the moon lowered and whisper
"there's a message from the stars"
" hello, he said. how are you, he asked"


Tippy Toe Tin sings under her breath
Tippy Toe Tin sings on top of her lungs


You pick yourself up off the ground to have me knock you back down
Again and again and when you ask me to explain
I say, I've got to be...

Cruel to be kind in the right measure
Cruel to be kind it's a very good sign
Cruel to be kind means that I love you
Baby, got to be cruel, you got to be cruel to be kind



Tippy Toe Tin click on the tip of her toes



The moon breaks
and with that the Moon become the Crescent Moon
because the truth, the message is from the Moon
and the first crystal snow is form

Monkey Wisdom

See No Evil

Hear No Evil

Talk No Evil

Blind me

Because I no longer want to see

Make me deaf

Because I no longer want to hear



Make me mute

Because I no longer want to talk

... about you

Goodbye